Everyone one of those points could be elaborated on but who knew there would be something even greater added to the list of life changing positive events…little did I know that while I was basking in all of the glory of how great my life already was, how perfect everything was falling into place, and the perfect timing of all the events, there was one more BIG surprise; the day after Mothers Day, Monday May 14th, we found out I was pregnant!!!! Although the news was a surprise it wasn’t shocking, the shock came later when I got my first taste of what being pregnant meant for my life style! To say the first trimester was rough may be an understatement! I think I fell just short of being admitted into a room with white padded walls, jail and being a single parent because of all of the crazy, hormonal, frustrated…”episodes” I had.
Backing up just a bit, when I found out I was pregnant I was already 8 weeks along, this meant I was 8 weeks into my pregnancy without a single lifestyle change; smoking, drinking, taking Vyvanse, living my “million mile an hour” lifestyle, drinking redbulls, 5 hour energy drinks, anything BUT water, hardly eating (as always) etc. So needless to say as soon as I found out all of that was 86ed! This sent my body into withdrawals, I was not only tired because I was pregnant, I was tired because I wasn’t drinking caffeine, taking Vyvanse, smoking, etc. I was crabby not only because of the change of hormones but because everything I would naturally grab for to eat, drink, or do, I wasn’t supposed to do anymore. For someone who doesn’t follow rules or accept “no” very well, I was all of a sudden being told “no you can’t, have, do, eat, drink” etc, I was schooled on so many things that I was going to have to give up, change, be aware of, blah blah blah…my head was spinning, I was annoyed beyond belief. As excited as I was, I was MAD AS HELL with every lifestyle change I learned about. Lucky for me I made it through that first trimester without completely losing my sanity, going to jail or losing Michael. Michael was beyond patient and did nothing short of an amazing job at handling my “episodes”. In addition I have to give my mom and sister credit for their patients too!
That first trimester I didn’t really have too many pregnant symptoms, other than sickness before I learned to take prenatals in the PM, sore boobs, raging hormones, exhaustion and eating nonstop (which also might have been a side effect of not taking Vyvanse and Smoking more than just being pregnant). So if I had not lead such a crazy, non-stop, kind of lifestyle prior to being pregnant I would probably be considered one of those women who has had it easy in regards to their first trimester pregnancy symptoms and side effects. I am 13 weeks 3 days today, and feeling great! Well minus the fact that my pants don’t fit! I am already using my Bella Band. I am at the point now where I don’t feel pregnant, I don’t look pregnant (maybe like I ate too many cupcakes but not pregnant), I ACT pregnant (not drinking/smoking, hanging out at happy hours, staying up late, eating differently etc.), but again I don’t LOOK pregnant. This leaves me feeling not validated.
So like with the other very exciting things going on in my live…I am playing the waiting game. Since I am one of the most impatient people this is my least favorite game to play. I will have to depend on the milestones from here on out to keep my sanity. I already found out the sex so now it is just each appointment to hear the heartbeat (although I have a home Doppler), I supposed week 20 is the next "big" week for baby. And July 6th or 9th should be my closing day (finally) on the house. Keeping myself busy with the move, buying nursery stuff and painting should help for a couple of weeks.
Until the next, most likely overdue update…
