For years now I have found myself writing letters in my head when I lay down to sleep at night. The problem is that because I am not actually putting pen to paper or fingers to a keyboard, and actually getting my thoughts out, I find myself writing, rewriting, and REwriting these letters in my head. I visualize myself deleting/erasing, rewording, editing, and proof reading these letters over and over, always thinking of better ways to word this or that. These letters are so well written (in my head) that when I sit down to actually put it on paper, I can never find the words I came up with at night, in my head, in my bed.
What is more, is sometimes this letter writing business causes me to get dizzy and even on the occasion get up and throw up like I have been on a merry-go-round.
If I am being honest with myself this is not just limited to writing letters it is also true about:
-Excel Spreadsheets (lame I know)
-Journal/Blogging (basically letters)
-Dumb trending games like
-Soduko
-Candy Crush
-Angry Birds
-To Do lists
And even sometimes it is just like a loop or broken record where I am doing something over and over in my dream, like go to the air port realize I forgot my passport, leave the airport to get it, and then return to the airport only to find I forgot my passport, and so on.
I am sure there is medication for this, but I won't try it because I want to make sure I hear my son at night.
Guess it is what it is, I will continue to solve "all the worlds problems" in my
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