Right Kind of Wrong

While I understand, and apologize that my last few blogs seem to be primarily negative, I promise I am not a negative person. Maybe it is when I am especially frustrated it inspires me to write, or maybe it is even because I just do not truly say exactly how I am feeling when I am as upset as I have been. And really in all fairness when I wrote the blog about my feelings towards wedding I was not necessarily upset I was just being frank.

I have had another bad night, seems to be more frequent lately…I hate that!

More random thoughts mainly based on the fact that I have had, yet another bad night:

-The title of tonight’s blog, sometimes there is a right, wrong. Tonight’s right kind of wrong is my methodology for ending the evening earlier than it naturally would have. Yes, cryptic, I know.

-I know I am going to wake up with a sore jaw (in order not to be considered “cryptic”), when I go to bed as frustrated as I am I tend to wake up with a sore jaw, one can assume it is because even in rem sleep, I am still so upset I clench my jaw while I am sleeping.

-St. Patrick’s Day, USE to be one of my favorite holidays, give not only todays events, but other past incidents that happened on St. Patty’s Day, I am beginning to think, not only it is not my favorite holiday, but I am starting to hate the damn day.
-I am considering a new career in psychic reading…I am pretty damn good at predicting the future…apparently.

-I am thoroughly amazed at Annie’s ability to not only play Frisbee but her general intelligence…above all her loyalty.
-I really wish I would have spent the day doing school work, at least it would have been productive.

-Had to replace ANOTHER flat tire, that is the 3rd one in a year. I decided to just get all 4 replaced, keeping the newest one I had just gotten as a full size spare. For the life of me, I cannot understand how one person goes through so many freakin tires!

-Had an amazing dinner date with my sister!

-During above date, had an interesting conversation about recognizing someone for things they should do, versus, just when they do favors or go above the expected. Was it the way we were raised? Should people be recognized and be shown appreciation for everyday things, are we wrong for not handing out cookies for taking out the trash, hypothetically?

-Still stuck between a rock and a hard place!

-He went there…nothing can ever undo what was done. Doesn’t make it a “deal” breaker so to speak, but definitely reiterated once AGAIN everything I said in my “Oops I said it again” blog…UGH, even if I could admit out loud to anyone, that maybe there was a glimmer of hope I could trust EVERYONE wasn’t like that…I wouldn’t in order to avoid public admit of defeat and once again being let down.

-I want my HOME back!

-Well my right kind of wrong seems to be kicking in, that is my cue!

I will try to write a much more, cotton candy, rainbow, and lollipops like blog the next time…I wouldn’t want my readers thinking I really am Negative Nancy!

With that said, I will leave readers with this insight; I really truly am happy, in general, and even in my relationship, if it weren’t for a minor…or not so minor issue that doesn’t change or get fixed overnight, things would be amazingly great. But in the meantime, when I am reminded on a daily bases that the situation is what it is, I can’t help but have a hard time, forgetting, being patient, or going on with live as it once was. I can only hope the situation will eventually be fixed, and that the relationship can survive it.

Goodnight!